They say you can only run away from your problems for so long before they start catching up with you.
I say that might only be true if you continue living the same life. If I could, I would leave this whole lifestyle… quit school, move somewhere warm, and just enjoy life.
Today in one of my psych classes the professor asked “If you could do anything in the world, and money and responsibilities weren’t an issue, what would you do?”
As I sat in silence, trying to imagine my greatest desire, I realized that initially I had absolutely no idea. Naturally my first thought was to travel- anywhere and everywhere, but then I considered how expensive it would be and decided against it… My mind then wandered to grad school which is on my list of things to do anyway and I pictured myself doing exactly what I am doing now; working, studying, and all the glamour that comes along with being a student (which let’s face it, isn’t so glamorous). It wasn’t until I imagined myself working, even though money was not an issue in this circumstance, that I realized I have basically been trained to format my life so as to expect to work hard in order to reap the benefits. Nothing has ever been handed to me, and even in a fake situation I could not picture myself just going out and doing something simply because I felt like it.
Is it society’s fault? Perhaps. While there are people in this world that want for nothing, the great majority of us must earn a living in order to pay for our own enjoyment. What scared me however, was my own lack of imagination. Is this a price to pay of growing up? Believe me, I have my goals and dreams… a “bucket list” if you will. But the funny thing is, I am actually already crossing things off of it; slowly, yes, but I am accomplishing things that 5 years ago I never would have actually thought I would do. I’ve traveled, I’ve done grueling athletic competitions like the Spartan Race and am currently preparing for a triathlon, and pushed myself in many other ways as well… I guess my next question would have to be: would crossing these things off of my list be as satisfying had I not had to pay and work hard in order to accomplish them?
In all honesty, I think I prefer the struggle.
So sad! No one should ever have to go through this
Sisters by fate. Best friends by choice.
(Yes, my head is cut off… they’re both wearing heels and I’m still taller than them)
